Blue Valentine and Marriage on the rocks.

Today, I've actually got some time and watched the movie called Blue Valentine. It stars Ryan Gosling and Michelle Williams. I thing, which I can say without any doubt is that they've given their career defining performances! They were really good. The movie actually has a lot of levels for both of them which gives them an opportunity to display their acting skills and talent.

The script and the performances of the primary actors are reason enough to watch the film. The direction is also quiet sensitive. The narration of the movie too, I found to be innovative. The story is quiet simple and thus makes it even more ironically intense. I've really seen some movies where they have a simple plot (nothing quiet special) but they somehow make it intense with the performances of the actors.

So this film is about a relationship which springs out of a 'love at first sight' between Cindy (Williams) and Dean (Gosling). The film has it's own way to proceed by contrasting the past with the present. I found this to be genius because this compels the story to be quiet interesting and less boring. These type of movies can suffer with the slow pacing, but this was perfectly alright. At present, their marriage is on the rocks and they a daughter, I think around 5 or 6 years. The daughter was actually not planned. They both decide to marry after Cindy becomes pregnant and they both have a different outlook on life.

I really won't spoil how the movies ends but all I will say is that the it was heartbreaking. I felt more bad for their daughter than anyone else. And that's how I got my today's subject for this post.

Now, if you're married and you think that the whole marriage thing was a mistake and all, you really need to think for days. Every married couple at one point has to face this kind of situation. That's when they're tested, may be by God, if you believe in God. That's when you really have to be careful and extricate yourself from that situation. YOU HAVE TO TRY HARD! You can't just wait for one another. You have to spark the fire back again. If it's possible, both of you mutually decide to isolate yourselves, may be for a week. During that period think about what would happen to others like your children if you have. You'll see that you'll begin to miss each other and that has to happen. If it doesn't that means you are guilty of something which you need to clear out. Try and save your relationship and marriage. Divorce might look as a solution in the short run, but always remember it will haunt you and will have an impact in the long run.

I think that all I have to say now. I'll be thinking how to improve on my posts. Hopefully, I'll be better and better with each time I write!

Have a nice day or a good night!

Love Always,
Bernard.

Hobbies And Bipolarity

I'm quiet busy these days. The thing is, I'm deliberately keeping myself busy. I have a lot of free time. Most of my friends are either studying or doing something. My science friends, including Ransley, are studying for their Joint Entrance (Competitive, I guess) exams, so that they can get into good science college and my commerce friends they're studying for Chartered Accountancy (CPT) and all. If you ask me why I am not studying? I have a very simple answer - clearly I don't want to study Accounts or become Chartered Accountant. My interest lies in Entertainment Business like Movies, Music and TV. My dream is to direct a movie one day. I can be a good actor too and a mediocre singer. I sometimes write songs, I mean I usually write songs when I'm feeling sad or extremely happy. When I'm sad, the song turns out really good and I'm proud of it eventually. But when I'm extremely happy, the song turns out to be really corny, but then I tell myself 'That's what pop music is about'. No seriously they're not that great. Yet, I still love singing and acting and writing songs. So basically my hobbies are singing, song writing, reading and listening to music. I even made a music video and I was the sole producer, director and editor. I uploaded that on facebook, and it got pretty good response, although it wasn't really good. The reason why I felt it wasn't that great because my sister was the one in the music video and she kept herself inside a bubble from which she didn't wanted to step out. I think she didn't trust me or something. I went along with her anyway, because it was really fun making it. Me and my cousins also made a cameo appearance in the video. And apparently everyone in my family saw the video and they liked it!

My sister loves Selena Gomez so we did the music video on 'Love You Like A Love Song'. I'm also making my first movie called - A journey Called Xavier's. Probably I'll release it sometime at the end of May. It's a documentary film about my school and focuses mostly on the last few days in school. I shot in school mostly and since I was too shy, I couldn't get enough footage. However one of my classmates who's also aspiring to become a director, told me he'll give me the footage which I missed. So hopefully it will be good. My friends and classmates were actually quiet surprise to see my stint. Actually no one believed in me that even I can do something. Again, I believe I was too quiet. I'm still quiet even now. Just the fact is I'm bipolar! It get's in my way every single time. Only my close relatives and friends know what a crazy person I am. At a party, I can dance till the end of the world! It's like I'm a completely different Avatar.

Some people are SHOCKED to see me like that! And they think how terrible I must be, in fact a hypocrite. I can understand this when I look at their faces. They seriously think I'm a wolf in sheep's clothing. I never explain anything about the disorder I'm suffering because I know that it won't matter much in my life, hopefully! Sometimes I really do laugh at this. It's funny to me. I guess, this is how everything works for a person like me. I'm actually glad because in this way i can behave appropriately at every place. I can be quiet at places where I'm supposed to be and can act crazy in a club or something. Once I start being crazy (in a good way), it becomes pretty hard to stop me. I enjoy it, though.

I also read books. Lately, I've been taken into reading. I just finished reading The Girl With The Dragon Tattoo and started reading The Catcher in The Rye. I'll review them most probably later. I've also read The Hunger Games trilogy and The Hobbit. I'm a big fan of The Hunger Games but not of The Hobbit. Anyways it was still a good read. I'll talk about these books, don't worry.

Till then, Bye.

Love Always,
Bernard.

The Perks Of Being A Wallflower

I'm going to devote this whole post about The Perks Of Being A Wallflower just to tell all of you how much I loved the movie and the book!

I downloaded the e-book for The Perks Of Being A Wallflower way before the movie came out as I knew that I will never actually own book. I really wanted to read it and so I read the e-book and I fell in love with it. After the movie came out, I ordered the book online and finally I had my own copy of the book. Few weeks ago I read the book again. And by the way I don't like to read e-books, that would be my first and last time reading an e-book, hopefully.

The book is plain and written in simple language so that anyone can understand it. Stephen Chobsky is really a great writer because he never tried to sugar-coat anything in his novel. Any person who possesses heart will be able to feel what the main character (Charlie) feels and will be able to relate to the book. I loved the fact that it was set in early 1990s. Charlie makes senior friends in school, namely Sam and Patrick and both of them are amazing and Charlie's perception of his surrounding is really great! Stephen Chobsky's character development in the novel is worthy of praise. I suggest every young adult and even the adults to read the book. If this book is read at the right time of your life then it sure will become a companion for life, just like it became to me because the book greatly affected me.

I'm in real life, pretty much like Charlie because I'm a wallflower too and we kind of think the same way, however whatever he goes through and I go through are completely different. I really hated myself and this book really made me feel better about myself and I started looking at life in a totally different way.I'll talk about me hating myself later.

The movie is also really good too, Charlie is played by Logan Lerman, Sam by Emma Watson and Patrick by Ezra Miller. The lead performances were strong and the performances of them are reason enough to watch this movie. The movie is directed by Stephen Chobsky himself and so he couldn't go anywhere wrong. The imperfections in the movie makes the movie perfect. I've watched the movie thrice. If you don't like to read books then at least watch the movie. The movie might also help to influence your thoughts about life. The music is great too. The movie and the book differs in ways (like every other book which has been turned into movie), but I think it couldn't have been helped because then the movie would have been NC-17 rated or R at the least. The movie is supposed to have a target audience and hence the rating, PG-13. So I suggest both, to read as well as watch the movie, If you're into reading books and watching movies.

Here's the trailer for the movie, in case if you haven't seen yet. The trailer is although deceptive and it's not a 'typical high school' movie about teenagers. It's so much more than that and travels deep. It's in one line about mental disorder, child abuse and deals with more grave subjects similar to this.

I hope you will someday read and watch the movie.

Love Always,
Bernard.